She is myfriend That's y I love her

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She was My best friend & I loved her so much.
I loved her more than my family , more than my boyfriend & more thanmyself.
Of course im not a lesbo I just loved her and i considered her my world.


For a reason she didn't appreciate our friendship :(

Now, Im dreaming about this Moment , The day she will call me and ask me to see her .
i hope the phone rings one day " my dear friend i missed you somuch let's hangout "


I know This from 1 year and a half , we studied together ...
Our friendship lasted for 6 months and i consider myself lucky to know her, this are my best days & i will never forget her .

I met her on december 2008 , it was my last term in my college. This time i had a bigh fight with my best friend.I felt " Lost" because i was trying to find a good group for my graduation 's project and the other subjects as well .


I remmber she was sitting near me in class, i said to my self I will ask her so i can join her and her friends in the team . I didn't care wether the team were a bunch of losers or not i just asked her...
I felt she is so sweet because she immediatly accepted my request.Also she used to say hello to me eventhough we didn't know each others at all the previous years.


Of course I didn't pick her because she is so sweet , I just pick her as my team projects randomly because i was desperate to find anyone .

Her sister was somekind hestitated that I join them but she convinced her .

I joined her in the graduation project and other 2 subjects as well.


The graduation project was divided into 2 projects.
1- group project " consists of 5 members"
2-indivdual project " 2 people"
it was so weered, because she chose me as her buddy in the individual project even tough she had her sister and the others friends she used to work with them for 3 years.




she came to my house to do the individual project together .
she was so spontaneous , she opened the windows byherself without asking my help , she also went to the kitchen and make her cofee byherself as well...
I loved her way a lot that day.. i said " she is a dependant person"


In our 2nd meeting she showed me all friends pictures via facebook and she kept telling me about her family as well. I felt happy for that .


after finishing our individual project she was so happy and she sent me many messages to thank me for everything

we also had like 3 others projects ... of course every project has its own exams and tests beside the practical work.

For the first time in my life i loved college , College was fun and also the projects meetings were .
we used to gather in the leader's house and we used to have so much fun.
i loved to go to meetings just to see her coz she used to absent from college much.


she is a very lovely person, open minded, kind, charming,very smart,knowledgable,very supportive and of course cool and stylish .
she is a perfect friend


Beside working together in the 3 subjects 's projects i helped her to pass the exams , we used to study 2gther as well i mean.

I used to explain for her the 3 subjects even though she didn't from me that.
I did it because i loved her and i used to miss her because our projects'meeting were just 2 days per week and she used to absent a lot from school.

whenever i used to miss her i called her to come to my house to study together.

when she used to absent from projects' meeting she used to send me messages telling me " I miss you" , she was so sweet


She used to love me so much, she used to defend me , always telling me i love you , she used to support me all the time and keep my soul up , she also helped me to loose a lot of weight. I did so so i can let her feel proud of me as well.


I can't also deny that she helped in the projects , she helped much even though she hated the projects .

when she came to my house she used to bring like small nice gifts all the time

She also loved to take pictures of me from time to time and she was good at doing so.

Before i asked her to come and study with her , she asked me to go to hangout wiz her , i Felt like so happy that time ,,, I said finally i will see her everday because i just used to see her 2 days a weeek and as i said rarely in college.

But after i hanged-out wiz her ,, she never asked me again, I Said it is ok maybe my friend is buzy, and i will ask her to come my house to study for her so i can see her. In fact i didn't mind at all to help her since i used to pass a great time with her.

sometimes i was doubting that she shall be going out wiz her others friends without telling me but i kept telling myself she will never do that, eventhough my brothers warned me before.


I studied for her and her sisters as well coz i was 100 percent sure that after college we will see each others .

after the college finished , she called me to make sure i did ok in exams.
the next week she called me and she told me she is coming to visit me ,, i wondered why she didn't ask me to go out with her instead of visiting me .. I said it is ok i just want to see her & maybe later we will of course go out .
But in fact she didn't come to visit me :(

By coincidence i knew from a common friend that he always hang out with her and her friends ( the ones outside college) ,,, i felt so so so sad this day :(. i said oh yeah my brother was absolutely right , she will forget about me once the college finsih.

after 1 month later she sent me a message on facebook telling me that I missed her so much .i was so happy and i replied her back and of course i didn't ask her to go out or anything.

then 2 months later she invited me to her engagement party and i was so so happy to see her .

Then 2 weeks later i called her again , I told her its summer time I want to see you 2nite. then she gave an excause " sorry i can't my eyes hurt me and im wearing a sunglass " . :(:(.... then the next day i sent her a message telling her to go to the beach .. But she didn't reply me , then i called her like 4 times and she didn't even answer me .I felt so so shit and my mood was so bad.

I wondered why she did that to me, why she ignored me 2 many times ? if she just knew me for her interest than why she invited me to her engagement ? and i kept asking myself inside questions ...

I lost hope that time , I made a decision " I will never call and know her again.


Then i saw her again at our graduation 's party , when she saw me she screamed and she was so so happy 2.even though i was so sad of what she used to do with me i acted like nothing happened and i didn't judge her. i hugged and kissed her instead.
I was happy to see her in fact.

A month later i sent her a message telling her that i have missed her and i want to go out with her :)and she didn't reply me :(

Then 1 month later after really forgetting her :( , I saw her again in a mall ... she left her friends and she screamed and she kept calling me but i was rude this time :(
I pretended that I didn't see her... of course she noticed that since she is so smart , and she felt extremly sad and angry ...

This time I regret what i've did so much .. I kept crying for a week coz i knew i lost this girl forever :(

Guys I LOVED her so so much... I kept trying to call her since the last june ( 6 months ago ) , june was the time we finished college and it was the time ourfriendship disappeared...
I just saw her twice after that... engagement even & graduation event and of course the last day i saw her i lost her as well :(

I got for her more than 2 gifts in her birthday coz i loved her it was before the college's last exams...and i will never forget she thanked me and she kissed me and she was so so so happy :(


maybe she doesn't want to know me coz she sees me as a trite , i didn't impress her ?
she doesn't want me to know her old friendz? the wereed stuffs 2 that when she used to see me she used to scream and hug me even though she used to ignore me..

now im falling apart.. always thinking why she never ask ... i feel sad coz i feel as the animal is better than me .. how come she forgot me that quickly .. i also feel sad coz i ignored her when i saw her ...

any help dear friendz?